shout out to my papa g:)

since yesterday was father's day

i need to give a shout out to my amazing dad.

he takes such good care of me and my family

he always gives great advice

is there when you need someone

always there to have fun with

and kick your butt at pool:)

my dad is amazing

im so grateful for his example

and love that he has for our family

i love him more then anything

he rocks my socks

just a thought....

if you don't know my dad

maybe you should

he will make your life a little brighter

the week where everything was perfect

let me just tell you something

i had a bomb week.

the middle of the week consisted of...

snow cones

homemade commercials and crazy videos

sliding down the stair thingy at the library

playing crazy games in the byui center

having my mom come up for the day to see me

having a ton of classes cancelled!

dinner with friends

and so many many more little things that made the middle of the week fantastic:)

friday and saturday morning... not so much on the bomb side

this weekend started off rough

all i can say about that is things always happen for a reason

sometimes we dont know why

we can only hope that things will turn out for the best.

all i can say is i love my roomies no matter what

but anyways me heather and brandon

headed to lava hot springs for the afternoon.

we got there and walked around the little shops

while we were walking around we kept seeing flyers for helicopter rides.

sooooooo

we decide what the heck

and WE WENT!

after the AWESOME ride

we went out and had a really good dinner.

then we headed to the hot springs.

omg it is SO nice there

it was so perfect

the was raining and the springs felt great



after the hot springs we went and got

SQUARE ICE CREAM

anyways..... that was saturday

sunday....

we played poker

heather kicked butt:)

all in all it was a great week :)

just a thought....

if you dress up crazy while playing poker

it is way more fun:)

status update :)

more status updates

just cuz some days there are a ton of good updates on facebook.

and here they are...

Its hard to explain but Im feeling happier than i have in months.

Like Im noticing new things for the first time.

I don't know how i got so lucky,but everyone deserves to be happy.

Even me. :)

Jonathan Taylor Thomas wooh:)

"You were born an original. Don't die a copy."

Happy 2nd birthday to my little austyn love u!!!!

I live for the moments that put butterflies in my stomach and a smile on my face ♥

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened " :-)

smmeeks.blogspot.com

YAY!!! great job Mavs :)

isn't that thing called life funny never know were it will take you and how it will end

Happy Birthday tommorow to most CUTEST niece eva!!!!!!!

Can't believe she is already 2!!!!!!

Love ya sweet girl:)

Don't live anybody elses dream but your own.

Somewhere out there is a man worth shaving my legs for.

Can't believe Austyn is going to be TWO tomorrow! Time goes too fast...

Is grateful for family and friends that love me unconditionally with no strings attached.

I love you all! Thank you for being there for me!

I hate it when people are so negative.

Be thankful for what you have.

It could be worse.

Do not argue with an idiot.

He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience

My thoughts are free to go anywhere,

but it's surprising how often they head in your direction.

~Author Unknown

just a thought....

i love facebook

keep writing the good stuff

i like it a lot:)

epic night

can i just say something???

your night will always be epic if you spend it with heather and brandon

we went out to eat

always entertaining to see brandon interact with the waitresses

another thing i want to point out

i had TWO dinners last night

TWO!!

so if i start to get fat we all know why.

well who am i kidding

im probably  not going to gain weight anytime soon

so scratch that

then we went to the new x-men

i was not thrilled about this

i really just wanted to go watch flight of the concords

because lets just face it

flight of the concords rock my socks

anywho.....

x-men was SO stinking good!!

i am so glad that i ended up going

since i originally said no to the invite......

anyways my night ended with kaprena watching

old america's got talent youtube videos.

I LOVE AMERICA'S GOT TALENT!!!!!!

(ps i LOVE sharon.... like absolutely LOVE her)

anyways i just thought i would point out my

three new tv/movie obsessions

for the semester.

hopefully you enjoy them too

if you dont then you are just plain weird...

just a thought....

go see the new x-men

it's amazingly good.

OOOO

watch flight of the concords too!!!

it is SO SO SO funny :)

OOOO

and america's got talent

it really is better then it sounds

glozell is da bomb!

glozell was introduced to me by my bestie chris

on our boring nights

me him and chels would watch her shows

she is one of the most funniest woman that i know.

i love her

here are some of my favorites



just a thought...

look her up on youtube

she is so amazing

i love her so much

she always puts a smile on my face

status update :)

so tonight's post is going to be

the good facebook updates of the week :)

well.... here they are

dun da da dun!

if there's one thing that i've learned, it's that life goes on...

I believe in the sun even when it isn't shining,

in love even when I am alone and in God even when he is silent. ♥

love my family

oooooo thunder ♥

Dear waiter at olive garden
I really like cheese,

therefore i would have liked you to put more on my salad.

I did not say stop and you stopped.
Sincerely
Jessie is pissed and wants her cheese to-go

It's national cop week!

Do you part to keep them employed and break some laws!!!

♥ I believe in pink.

I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner.

I believe in kissing, kissing a lot.

I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.

I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.

I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles

~Audrey Hepburn ♥

status: wish lawns would just mow themselves

comment: Be mean to it and maybe it'll get depressed, emo lawns cut themselves.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason.

People change so that you can learn to let go,

things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe

as much drama and stuff that goes on in the valley i still love it

just a thought....

i absolutely love facebook...

a little too much

and i LOVE your wonderful statuses

keep them coming

i love them a lot

my little bubble of rexburg

there are many reasons why each and every tuesday

i go get the university newspaper "the scroll"

some of the reasons being

i like making fun of the ridiculous articles that would only be

seriously discussed on a mormon campus.

subjects being like...

Marriage, An Important Step in Life

Have Compassion, Show Others Kindness

Dishonesty, Harmful to Character and Life

Crosswalks Provide Safety

Capitalization Unnecessary in Speech and Writing.

(all of these are in the opinion section)

im not going to lie sometimes i really like how happy-go-lucky this campus is

but at the same time it can be so super annoying.

do we really need to have articles that are about

crosswalks, being kind and telling the truth?

arent these all topics that we have been taught when we were like 5?

reason numero dos

is because i LOVE reading the police log.

i know, it's a little odd isn't it

but sometimes it has the most ridiculous things in there

(which in all honestly makes me happy that i live in such a safe community)

but still i think it is pretty funny when these are priorities to be in the log.

False Alarm. Village Apartments. Betty Crocker Citing.

Burnt Food, Smoke Only.

No Damage.

Noise Complaint

Various Traffic Complaints.

Reckless Driving

Riding a Four-Wheeler

so my question to you is a police log really necessary to have

in the little bubble of rexburg

especially in the university newspaper

where the biggest offenses include

a guy coming to class unshaven,

a girls skirt being a little bit above her knees

or some one's sandals being to close to resemble flip flops.

oh little rexburg i do love your innocence and ignorance to the world.

however, it can be really annoying :)

just a thought...

even though ignorance is considered bliss

sometimes it just makes you an idiot if you ever step outside of rexy

ok ok ok

ok.....

im going to be less of a downer...

because i know that i have TONS to be grateful

and i have lots of things that i love about life

which i know that i have talked about in earlier posts

but here we go again



i have the most amazing family and missionary in the whole wide world.

i love them more then i could ever express

i dont know what i would ever do without them in my life.

i guess that is when life really would be dark.

i love them for their

kindness

love

and support.

they pretty much are the best...

just a thought....

call someone in your family today

it's always nice to know you are loved

silence darkness and tears

one of my biggest pet peeves is when people wallow in their sorrows

i hate when people constantly complain about how miserable their lives are.

i hate that people just cant be happy with their lives.

but sadly enough i am one of those people.

something that i honestly cant stand about myself is that i have depression. 

I HATE THAT!

ive dealt with it since i was 12 and i never told anyone

i didnt want help

i didnt want to admit it to my friends or family

i didnt want to be one of those people that cant get past all the sadness.

since then i have gotten help

lots of good help

but yet i cant get past this

and i dont know why.

i mean i have made tons of progress

and i really should be grateful for that but im still not happy.

do you ever just feel like you want to be left alone

but yet want someone there at the same time.

and the person you want cant be there.

you just want to find the quietest place in the world and hide there.

all you want is

silence

darkness

and tears

and all you really need is that person

to make you feel like you matter in the world

like there is something worth living for

that there is something more past all the hurt and sadness.

i miss that person

im glad he is where he is

but the selfish part of me wants him here with me

in this country, state and timezone

is there any hope in life

i know there is but as hard as i try i cant seem to find it.

i know that i just need to turn to Christ

so how come i just cant seem to do it and be happy.

im sorry for writing this

but one thing that i have learned is that i love writing

sometimes it is easier to release my feelings by writing

them instead of talking about them

i dont write this to make you feel sorry for me

im writing this so maybe one day i might understand it

cuz all i am right now is

lost

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